i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. i had been doing really well and making out with boys. Well, the dude i made out with last night, and begged me to stay at his apt this morning, just left my place/epic party. I don't understand. Last night he seemed to like me so much.

I feel like such a loser. I cut myself six times. I am so repulsive, it's terrible. i don't know what to do, i am so useless. i am so gross.