so the past few weeks I have been euphoric. I met a new guy who really likes me and treats me great. I stopped doing coke and cut down on drinking and quit smoking cigarettes. I thought it was really great.
Well, today i had a realization:
I am in the middle of a massive mental breakdown.
I don't know what it is... maybe my head is clearing from behind all my vices, but it really just hit me hard how dysfunctional I've been the past few months and how much I've been taking it out on my friends.
I am seriously ill.
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OK, so whats the next step? Are you going to get help?
I'm new to your blog but I thought I'd comment about this post.
When I stopped using drugs, things got really bad for awhile. Then I realized that the main reason I was using was to avoid dealing with the pain I felt. After 6 months (and a few slip ups) I am in such a better place... I just had to drag myself through the mud to get here!
I don't know if that is similar to whats going on with you, but I thought I'd share. Good luck and hang in there.
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